I feel like super mom

I needed to document today because, this probably won't happen again for another couple weeks.
5:30 AM-wake up with Caelum and feed
6:45 AM- put him down for his first nap
9 AM-wake up and feed again while feeding myself breakfast
10:30 AM-Work out on Wii fit with Caelum in the Baby Bjorn
10:45 AM-Caelum falls asleep for second nap of day
Noon-feed
12:30-goes down for continuation of 2nd nap
3:15 PM-Caelum wakes up from naps-that's right he slept for nearly 3 hours in a single nap, meaning I slept

During his naps I have succeeded in taking a nap myself, cleaning the living room, cooking dinner, showering, doing my make-up, working out and blogging right now. This probably won't happen again for a long time, i'm super excited about it.

small victories

I made it all day yesterday without crying!!! That means that my hormones are finally starting to balance themselves out and i'm getting used to this whole staying at home all day thing, it's definately harder than I imagined.
I also realized yesterday that I am one of those moms that take pictures of everything. Bryan took a bath with Caelum yesterday and I took pictures. They will never ever be shared with anyone but I just had to document how freaking adorable it was.

SOO TIRED!!!

Enjoy the pictures of my adorable baby

Right after bath time. He loves baths!!
Caelum's going home outfit. That sweater belonged to his Grandpa Rick. My step grandma gave it to me for a baby shower. Let me tell you just how happy I am that he didn't throw up on it...whew!

We first thought this was just an excited face, then realized he makes it while pooing. Makes me laugh everytime.

So lets just say that blogging is going to be few and far between for the next couple weeks, until Caelum gets this whole sleep thing down. To be honest we have been extremely lucky with him. He rarely cries, he actually enjoys baths, and at nights he will sleep for up to 5 hours straight which is unheard of for a baby. However i'm still not used to it. Also, I have not trained myself to tell the difference between his "i'm just going to randomly make noises in my sleep and i'm actually awake whines" that he makes everynight. So that means last night I only got 30 min of sleep....good times. So i'm trying to sleep when he sleeps during the day but it's harder then I thought it would be.

Delivering Caelum

So let me say first off, what happened to me was extremely extremely rare. If you are pregnant, have no fear that what I went through will happen to you. OK? OK.

So, Wed Feb 17th i go in for my normal appointment hoping to hear some good news. Well the Dr. Checked and I was still about the same. I was due in 5 days and no change. Bryan and I started to get a little scared because earlier that week my Gall Bladder had decided to start flaring up, it hadn't flared up in over 3 years so we totally didn't expect this. Well the Dr says she is going to be back in a couple min., comes back and tells us to head downstairs and check ourselves in. What? You hope and you pray for this but when they actually decide to admit you it's freaky, I started to cry, a little out of excitement and a little out of fear.

So we head downstairs and get ready. Call our moms and let our friends know. Then they come in and give me an IV line, which sucked. I had gotten used to blood draws but not so much a tube in my hand. Then Dr comes in and breaks my water and here come the contractions. Super mild at first, I kept thinking I can do this this is easy...ummm, well 15 min later I was begging for the epidural man, which I never though I would do. He came in and was very friendly and honestly the epidural was nothing, I actually liked it more than the IV line, at least I didn't have to see this one. So then I wait. I wait for 7 hours.

Then out of no where my back starts to hurt, really bad, just above the epidural spot. So intense that I have to shift on my side and have Bryan constantly rub my back, then my Gall Bladder flares up...bad. I had also formed a fever that was spiking at 102 so I was placed on antibiotics. They gave me what drugs they could but since I was so close to pushing they couldn't do much. It gets so bad at one point I break down crying, begging for better drugs.

Well 9 PM rolls around and the nurse tells me I can start pushing. Easy enough, except my back was in so much pain I could not curl my head towards my chest and everytime I hold my breath my Gall Bladder feels like it's going to expolde. The nurse feels so bad she consults the Dr who says I can have a little more drugs but more than likely i'm going to need a C section. I start to freak out and decide that is not giong to happen, so instead I sit there and cry and push for 3 hours. Everytime I was done pushing I would collapse back and try not to cry, all this time with a nurse telling me I can stop anytime and go in for surgery, that I don't have to do this. I just really didn't want a cesarean.

Well at 12:30 they decide no more and take me away. By this time I was screaming at them from back pain and freaking out about the cesarean. I begged them to knock me out, but they said no. I will spare some details of pre surgery, but let's just say there were honestly times I thought it would be easier to go to sleep and not wake up. The Dr was kind enough to give me some gas to relax me and luckily, I fell asleep. Next thing I know i'm waking up and I hear a cry in the distance. I vaguely thought to myself "is that mine? no way, I don't remember being cut open or him coming out". But Bryan was gone and the Dr was there telling me that he will be back in a min. Bryan comes back a couple min later, tells me our baby was 9 lbs. 2 oz and huge. All the nurses were talking about how chunky and cute he was and yet it took another 10 min for me to see him and then they dragged me away.

I will be completely honest when I say it was hard, hardest thing I ever had to do. I went through full flegged labor and then had to do a c section anyway, so I went through both forms of delivery all in a 16 hour period. But I will also say this, he is worth it. I would do it all over again for him. I'm still recovering and since mine was a unique case that involved lots of drugs, flared up organs and was a last minute decision, mine is taking a little more time. But he is perfect, the love of my life and I am grateful for every minute I get with him, I am grateful for a husband who was strong enough and loved me enough to stand by my side during the worst pain of my life and I am thankful to Heavenly Father for sending down people to help, we were not alone in that delivery room and I know I could not have done it without the Lord's help.

Meet Baby Watson

introducing Caelum James Watson

Born Feb 18th, 2010 at 1:17 AM

Weight 9 lbs 2 oz

Length 21 inches

We have not taken a family pic yet but I will post more pics soon, along with the delivery story, let's just say i'm still in the hospital : )

We love him so much and can't wait for everyone to meet him.

So I've Been A Little Cranky

So, I haven't been updating a lot lately cause i've been a little on the cranky side. You see last week I was in Labor and Delivery and they told me I should be back within the next couple days delivering, then my Dr told me that I should probably be having the baby any day now, well that couple days/anyday now has officially been over a freaking week. You know, I was perfectly OK waiting until the 22nd, but now they got me all excited and anytime I feel anything going on I freak out that it's a contraction and i'm getting 15 texts a day asking if there is a baby yet, and I haven't been to work in a week cause we were all afraid i'd go into labor.

Well.......NOTHING!!!!!

So yesterday I went into the Dr again for a normal check up, no more progression, so she did the super fun sweeping membrane thing again (I know gross) and sent me on my way. Well I started having major contractions but since i'd been down that road before I decided to wait like 2 hours, well they started to fade away. So I sent Bryan a text at work telling him I was going to go sit in the tub and cry and then sleep until the baby comes. Pretty close, I took a 2 hour nap : ) And then I proceeded to sit around in a pink bathrobe all day and watch Lifetime.

Well Bryan could tell that I was more than upset and that there really isn't much he can do about it, but he tried. He came home from work last night with these:

These made me realize I need to stop shuffeling around waiting like an idiot and get back to life until baby comes. So I got out of my nice happy recliner, shut off Grey's Anatomy reruns, put away the take out menus (stayed in my pink robe cause seriously clothes just aren't worth it when you're 38 weeks pregnant) and actually cooked dinner. Today I decided it was time to come back to work, actually go into work and not just work from home. I'm going to try and forget about having this baby early and plan on the baby coming on the 22nd, cause if I can't do that then I will very literally go insane.

Baby Watson Update

Went to the Doc this morning. I am 3 1/2 cm 90% effaced and at a -1 station. What does that mean? Well it means I could pop tomorrow or in 3 weeks. Dr. Brown thinks it will happen within the next week, i'm hoping so too. She says I probably won't progress much further without going into labor.
So everyone please keep your fingers crossed, pray, make a wish at 11:11 that I will go into labor soon cause I swear this kid is trying to claw his way out. Wish me luck!!

Update 2/5-So, Wed night I started having contractions, although it took me till 11 at night to realize they were contractions and by that point they were 3 minutes apart. So Bryan and I pack up our stuff and head to the hospital where they put me in a trauma room. They want to make sure i'm actually in labor before they admit me. Well I was still 31/2 when they checked but I was definately having contractions that were now 2 minutes apart. They tell me to hold tight and they will check me again in an hour. She comes back and checks me again, still 3 1/2 so she calls the Dr. Well the Dr didn't want to come in at 1:30 in the morning so instead she decided to send me home, didn't strip my membranes or anything. Instead she gave me Morphine (which is a very happy drug) and sends me home. Well Morphine stops contractions, so now i'm having patheticly weak contractions every 10 min and have been since Thurs morning. Called my actual Dr (not the on call Dr) and she is a little cranky, says I should have my baby by now. So now I wait. I feel like I can't do anything but wait. If I have not had the baby by Monday then I will go in and my Dr will strip my membranes and try to help me along. So let's all hope that something happens this weekend and I have my little guy by early next week.